William, there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think of you. I’m not getting on with mum at the moment, she’s my best friend but I’m so lost I can’t communicate with her. I miss you. You should be here and telling me not to worry or relying your experiences to me and just doing normal brother stuff. That was taken away from us. I will never stop loving you. I long to have a conversation with you even if it’s about what I had for lunch. Anything even if only for a short while. I would take a thousand pictures and then I would know what you looked like from memory and not from photos. Those are others peoples memories. They are not mine for I don’t remember anything. I’m so sorry that I don’t.